Wow, You’ve Really Grown Up

Skin? Job? Finances? External Responsibilities? Height?

Do these categories discriminate child from adult?

Being a child means that you have little experience thinking for yourself and that your perspective of feelings and beliefs are what shape your experience.

Being an adult means that you think for yourself and your perspective is only a piece of understanding your experience of the world outside your own head.

For me, I am in between. I am currently a childish mind moving closer and closer to an independent and strongly competent adult mind.

The point is that this is how I discriminate between children and adults; it’s not about our skin (tight or wrinkled), job, external responsibilities, and body type. Our mind and emotions are the most significant possessions in our life. The more skilled we are at being aware of our thoughts and feelings and effectively using them to learn about ourselves, others, and the world, the more competent adults we become.

I grew up with Linkin Park and thought that there song “Crawling” off their Hybrid Theory album was fitting for this post. The song really portrays how an undeveloped mind can really take control of us and of so many different areas in our lives (specifically in the song, about a relationship).


Crawling in my skin

These wounds, they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing what is real

There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface

Consuming, confusing

This lack of self-control I fear is never ending

Controlling, I can’t seem to find myself again

My walls are closing in

(Without a sense of confidence I’m convinced that there’s just too much pressure to take)

I’ve felt this way before…So insecure

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me

Distracting, reacting

Against my will I stand beside my own reflection

It’s haunting how I can’t seem

To find myself again, my walls are closing in

(Without a sense of confidence I’m convinced that there’s just too much pressure to take)

I’ve felt this way before…So insecure

About Kevin Carlstead

I graduated as a hospitality and psychology student at University of Denver. I spent most of my teenage and young adult years in the hospitality industry. I am still searching for what industry suits my personality and talents so that I can feel more meaning throughout my days. My current career pursuit has me enrolled in a graduate program to become a licensed Marriage and Family Therapist. I was born and raised in San Diego, CA. I love music with something to it. I love life with something to it. I have made it one of my purposes in this life to integrate both of these things that I love. This blog and my own songwriting has given me the platforms to do that very thing. Thank you for reading.
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