Ego

Playing out at one of my gigs I was referred to as the guy with the anxiety issues and the mental disorder. I didn’t combat this, I just laughed and said, “sure.”

I’m guessing the person only listened to “Cage,” and from this, easily concluded that I have terrible issues.

This is not the first incident and will not be the last I am guessing, so I wanted to share with you all this:

I’m happy to say
I’m not in a mental institution
Just neurotic like everyone else

I’m happy to say
I’m on a conscious path
Developing and growing for better than okay

I’m happy to say
When emotions come my way
I’m here in my mind to stay

I’m here to learn
To be a human of calm and growth
Finding the process to live and love…and both

It’s unfortunate that you think I’m crazy
Like I have a disorder in my mind
I’m only being honest of the pain because I’m here growing towards life

It’s unfortunate that you call me different
Like you’re not going through the same
Your only not allowing because it’s hard to make the change

It’s unfortunate because the difference is what we need. We need to be honest, to grow, and to lead.
Our mind needs a person of curiosity and innocence.
And that person needs to be us.
Or we can get lost in it.

I look all around and people are scared not to know.
That’s why we need innocence and to let it be shown.
From here we have peace
To be curious to find
What it is that we need, in the depths of our mind

(Not only our brains but outside too)

If we purpose to learn and suffer to grow, then the problems in our life have nowhere to go
They’ll be seen with peace and we’ll be curious to find, an attentively sought answer from the wisdom of that time.

About Kevin Carlstead

I graduated as a hospitality and psychology student at University of Denver. I spent most of my teenage and young adult years in the hospitality industry. I am still searching for what industry suits my personality and talents so that I can feel more meaning throughout my days. My current career pursuit has me enrolled in a graduate program to become a licensed Marriage and Family Therapist. I was born and raised in San Diego, CA. I love music with something to it. I love life with something to it. I have made it one of my purposes in this life to integrate both of these things that I love. This blog and my own songwriting has given me the platforms to do that very thing. Thank you for reading.
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