I don’t think to understand – because of habit.
I react to my feelings – because of trained reaction.
So, when feeling good, or distracted from the pain, I can think so positively and I love being me.
And, when I’m feeling bad, I can think so negatively and hate being trapped in my mind, my shoes.
Regardless, letting my feelings take the reign of my thoughts without any organization or exploration into perspective and reason is an obsessive consequence with cyclical, never growing experiences and a childish, dependent mind.
Everyday, I need to practice thinking towards understanding no matter how I feel…for the purpose of wanting to love myself for how I act no matter how I feel…and for the greater purpose of (at every corner and moment of life) learning something deeper to refresh my mind and become loving and wise with the layers of information and insight I build from the journey.
That’s the life I want to live.
And the one I need to live if I want to relax my mind, satisfy all the potential I have as a human being, and live everyday towards death with peace of mind and open eyes.
And then, I will love.
As they all are.
With a deep, calm breath.
Because “love it will not betray you, dismay, or enslave you…it will set you free…be more like the man you were made to be.”