In Response to “Fault in our Stars”

I like to listen to this from the Fault in our Stars soundtrack while I read these words:

Among the pains


and realities

all filling up our perspective…we try…we try our hardest to keep the beauty in sight…to keep a positive outlook. Because if we don’t, then we are swallowed whole…depression…laziness…distraction…a whirlwind of fantasy that finds its way out of the hurt and reality.

The reality that we all die. We all die.

We all die.

We all die.

Our heart stops. Our heart fails. Our body ends.

The cancer eats our cells until it makes our functions cease to pull in oxygen.

And when that happens, the people still standing around in the ICU see our soul no more…our smile…our eyes recognizing them…them…the people that just walked into the room…the people that we have shared our closest adventures with.

If we all die, then what can we do while we are here.

Deeply understand and care for the life that is all around us…not forgetting the life that is (clearly, thru our energy, thoughts, and feelings) inside of us.

Understand and care deeply for the beauty

all             around                                                 us.

Is that not okay? Society doesn’t say go pour out your feelings. It doesn’t say to ask a person questions to the point that you fully understand them up till THIS VERY moment…then afterwards, to “keep an eye out” (care) because understanding evolves as the person continues to.

This is what life is.


We don’t go a day without it.


We seem to forget this one every moment.

This is what life is.

Ever evolving beauty.

We don’t go a day without it.


We seem to forget this one every moment.

This is life.

Jump in.

Pain is there.

Beauty and love are both there.

Making that choice to stop hiding.

Jump in.

Respond with skill and effort to immerse.

Living through our care…our care to deeply be involved with every piece of this mysterious experience that layer by layer is out there in front of us and inside of us.

Fuck it’s hard.

That is the truth.

Accept that.

Then, look.

Look around.

Find the beauty lying all around you.

Be happy it’s a part of this life…among the pains


tough realities.

About Kevin Carlstead

I graduated as a hospitality and psychology student at University of Denver. I spent most of my teenage and young adult years in the hospitality industry. I am still searching for what industry suits my personality and talents so that I can feel more meaning throughout my days. My current career pursuit has me enrolled in a graduate program to become a licensed Marriage and Family Therapist. I was born and raised in San Diego, CA. I love music with something to it. I love life with something to it. I have made it one of my purposes in this life to integrate both of these things that I love. This blog and my own songwriting has given me the platforms to do that very thing. Thank you for reading.
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