American Dream: Control

 There is a force field around me

There is a grip on my thoughts

There’s a chain holding my actions

and my self-awareness lost

It’s the sheep that keep me quiet

The loneliness that keeps me tied

Want so bad to escape it

but habits stay on the ride

Fitting-in is my burden

It’d mean retreat if I let go

Alone I would be hurting

But here I am never home

My purpose to feel good

to stay far from the pain

The american dream approaches

To stay as everyone, insane.


I may look different on the outside

(hair and face)

But, under the mask is my purpose

where the feelings run the game

The only way to break

this force field tying me down

is to replace my motive: emotions

to learning the truth that floats around

A passion for reality

A care for what’s clear

Perspective fucks assumptions

Black & White isn’t near

Gray is all around us

So, dive deep, see what’s true

Everything is changing

Good luck feeling it through

About Kevin Carlstead

I graduated as a hospitality and psychology student at University of Denver. I spent most of my teenage and young adult years in the hospitality industry. I am still searching for what industry suits my personality and talents so that I can feel more meaning throughout my days. My current career pursuit has me enrolled in a graduate program to become a licensed Marriage and Family Therapist. I was born and raised in San Diego, CA. I love music with something to it. I love life with something to it. I have made it one of my purposes in this life to integrate both of these things that I love. This blog and my own songwriting has given me the platforms to do that very thing. Thank you for reading.
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