What are you so Afraid to Lose?

As a human you are so vulnerable but you are hiding from it.

You seem dark and feel claustrophobic in your lies, your lies, your contradictions, your honest innocent soul committed by control to suffocate in your shut down, closed off, unanswered need for integrity in your conscious mind, your unanswered respect within to be happy, to feel loved, acknowledged by someone

…even if it is just from yourself…

The opposite of this acknowledgement is killing your very truth that whispers in your ear telling you of your pains your potential your drawbacks your senses your emotions your thoughts…and you drink them away you entertain them away you excuse them with words like “not today…she wasn’t hurt, I was hurt…you made me feel this way…”

Responsibility, independence:

Take these words and apply them to your vulnerability, your mind, your actions, and not just your ego comfort and finances…life is not all about feeling good, that is just something it doesn’t truly offer. Find the courage to be vulnerable and step into the unexpected while learning to be competent to handle it.

“The reason you are always stressed is because you are trying to control the unexpected instead of become competent in learning and doing what is needed within the unexpected to grow and love life. You feel inadequate and stressed instead of adequate and relaxed.”

– paraphrased from Paul Hatherley

The song below is about pure vulnerability that asks us, “What are you so afraid to lose?”

Damien Rice is a very emotionally deep singer/songwriter with melodies that truly touch his words he writes and the souls of his listeners. Here is a song from his new album “A Favourite Faded Fantasy” called It takes a lot to know a man.

“It takes a lot to give, to ask for help
To be yourself, to know and love what you live with
It takes a lot to breathe, to touch, to feel
The slow reveal of what another body needs

It takes a lot to give, to ask for help
To be yourself, to know and love what you live with
It takes a lot to breathe, to touch, to feel
The slow reveal of what another body needs

What are you so afraid to lose?
What is it you’re thinking that will happen if you do?”

About Kevin Carlstead

I graduated as a hospitality and psychology student at University of Denver. I spent most of my teenage and young adult years in the hospitality industry. I am still searching for what industry suits my personality and talents so that I can feel more meaning throughout my days. My current career pursuit has me enrolled in a graduate program to become a licensed Marriage and Family Therapist. I was born and raised in San Diego, CA. I love music with something to it. I love life with something to it. I have made it one of my purposes in this life to integrate both of these things that I love. This blog and my own songwriting has given me the platforms to do that very thing. Thank you for reading.
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