When the stress flies thru my doors and confusion and complexities pile up from being overwhelmed with my focus, the hesitation then anxiety and finally anticipating paranoia comes rushing in.

All I want. Is for my mind to relax. Is for my mind to be clear.

Ahhhh. It hurts. It’s burning. I hate this anxiety. This panic. This fear. This anticipation.

All I need. Is for my mind to find context. Is for my mind to focus on the most pressing reality. Is for my mind to accept and understand this reality from each vantage point.

What was the last thing that really set me off? Let’s trace it back.
To all of my friends with anxiety (and even depression), I suffered for so long with these mental and emotional drawbacks. It took time to find my ground.

The stress still hits confusion and the confusion still hits panic. The positive about this now is that it is my super power. All it is telling me is “hey. hey Kev. focus. there is something pressing and it needs your time and care.”

This energy helps me to grow. Before it turns into an insane, irrational pattern of crippling panic attacks leading to depression…before it even turns into any fear or opposing force scrambling my mind and relaxed consciousness, I utilize the energy to grow and live right here in this sometimes overwhelming reality. This beautiful, waterfall of facts that constantly find its way into our opportunity…into our potential…into our consciousness of this life around us.

A song from my EP I wrote in 2012:

“Valium is good but addiction is crazed, so I throw em to my friends to get these pills away, I’ll be alone today, so I can face this…”