Reality – Where is it? If we can’t see it, what are we focusing on?

Every action is a hypothesis.

The first attempt is an adventure.

The rest are varying perspectives within the journey.

I am open, vulnerable, and learning at each undivided, focused step.

The ever-growing skill, mastery, and care of this action is found thru understanding, wisdom, and love.


Sometimes when I start to write a new post for my blog, I just begin by reflecting through writing the plethora of thoughts, feelings, and memories in my head. This takes a lot of effort and time. Because of this, I want the first thing I write to be the essence of my new post. However, here is how it actually works:

  1. Today, I began by writing about my busy and exhausting previous month. All of my thoughts and feelings that revolved around the memories were flowing off my fingertips.
  2. Once this confusing and unorganized reflection became more succinct, I discovered the significant point I wanted to bring about in my blog post.
  3. I tried my hardest to somehow extract my first effort of writing, which could be considered gibberish, into the post…and yet, the words just wouldn’t tell the story I needed them to tell.

Maybe it was out of laziness.

Maybe it was out of ego to show myself that I can’t fail when acting on my impulse…that my first attempts are always perfect.

Regardless of why, I ended up moving with the significant point as I realized that it was more important than my pride. So, I opened up a brand new word document.

  1. Reflection starts as a hypothesis. The first few lines are to get back in touch with the intangible life growing in my mind.
  2. The next few lines are making sense of the first attempt.
  3. The rest is an exploration into life itself.
  4. Pushing my ego to the side and opening up my mind to the true and natural steps it takes to learn are necessary for me to explore, understand, and love.

If I were to measure my “success” based on my first time, then I would either never allow a second chance to view life because of the thought of “failing” again, or I would keep pressing on as I stress to not fail again. Both scenarios would leave my relationship with failure in shambles. However, failure is non-existent. We created this word due to competition and our human ego/pride.


To shed my pride would help solidify my vulnerable and natural stance in reality. Stress, ego, and insignificant distraction takes me away from reality. When I fall far from reality, my values take a back seat, my actions become irrational, and my life’s direction is in the hands of my constantly fluctuating emotions and impulses.

Every action is a hypothesis.

The first attempt is an adventure.


“Life ain’t only supply and demand”

About Kevin Carlstead

I graduated as a hospitality and psychology student at University of Denver. I spent most of my teenage and young adult years in the hospitality industry. I am still searching for what industry suits my personality and talents so that I can feel more meaning throughout my days. My current career pursuit has me enrolled in a graduate program to become a licensed Marriage and Family Therapist. I was born and raised in San Diego, CA. I love music with something to it. I love life with something to it. I have made it one of my purposes in this life to integrate both of these things that I love. This blog and my own songwriting has given me the platforms to do that very thing. Thank you for reading.
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