Below the Speed Limit

Why do I still run in the rat race? …impulsively flying from one action to the next… Is it because I still believe in the rush? That it is efficient? That I save a lot of time and I could do other things with that few extra minutes I now have? Am I more effective?
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Truly…I am less effective in my skills, character and memory. Also, after putting my petal to the metal and jerking to a screeching halt at the very next stoplight, I usually find the patient driver who went the speed limit still right next to me.
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Patience. Slow Down. Look at the moment in front of me. See the facts, options and make a conscious choice towards warm resolve.
 
If it is complex with a lot of moving parts, then slow down even more and take time to explore, understand and act when ready. No matter how awkward or weird I may look. Sometimes it seems like I am having a mental sneeze during a conversation…but it is not important to worry about my image.
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What is most important is the substance of my character who thinks through what I need to say, do and remember.
It takes a calm and patient observer to stay undeterred and in sync with reality and my fulfilling values and goals within that beautiful, scary place.
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How do I stay here…in reality? If I look past your perspective as I act here in this moment, then I am not here in reality. If I am running in the rat race of impulsive, faster-than-the-speed-of-traffic-society, then I am not here in reality. How could I?
 
Focus. It takes a lot to just focus on one experience at a time. Within that one experience, it takes a lot to just focus on what I find to be important…money? family? pleasure? career? mind and emotions? character? meaning? My purpose determines the outcome. So, I need to understand where my focus is placed through my experiences.
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Why do I still run in the rat race?
Because it is easy to get caught up in the movement of the crowd.
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It hurts to move the other way.
I bruise like a peach.
I will just need to accept the pain… and the black and blue.
Here I come reality…with patience and a detailed, determined, and passionate focus.
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“Do not let my fickle flesh go to waste
As it keeps my heart and soul in its place.
And I will love with urgency
But not with haste.”

About Kevin Carlstead

I graduated as a hospitality and psychology student at University of Denver. I spent most of my teenage and young adult years in the hospitality industry. I am still searching for what industry suits my personality and talents so that I can feel more meaning throughout my days. My current career pursuit has me enrolled in a graduate program to become a licensed Marriage and Family Therapist. I was born and raised in San Diego, CA. I love music with something to it. I love life with something to it. I have made it one of my purposes in this life to integrate both of these things that I love. This blog and my own songwriting has given me the platforms to do that very thing. Thank you for reading.
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