Below the Speed Limit

Why do I still run in the rat race? …impulsively flying from one action to the next… Is it because I still believe in the rush? That it is efficient? That I save a lot of time and I could do other things with that few extra minutes I now have? Am I more effective?
Truly…I am less effective in my skills, character and memory. Also, after putting my petal to the metal and jerking to a screeching halt at the very next stoplight, I usually find the patient driver who went the speed limit still right next to me.
Patience. Slow Down. Look at the moment in front of me. See the facts, options and make a conscious choice towards warm resolve.
If it is complex with a lot of moving parts, then slow down even more and take time to explore, understand and act when ready. No matter how awkward or weird I may look. Sometimes it seems like I am having a mental sneeze during a conversation…but it is not important to worry about my image.
What is most important is the substance of my character who thinks through what I need to say, do and remember.
It takes a calm and patient observer to stay undeterred and in sync with reality and my fulfilling values and goals within that beautiful, scary place.
How do I stay here…in reality? If I look past your perspective as I act here in this moment, then I am not here in reality. If I am running in the rat race of impulsive, faster-than-the-speed-of-traffic-society, then I am not here in reality. How could I?
Focus. It takes a lot to just focus on one experience at a time. Within that one experience, it takes a lot to just focus on what I find to be important…money? family? pleasure? career? mind and emotions? character? meaning? My purpose determines the outcome. So, I need to understand where my focus is placed through my experiences.
Why do I still run in the rat race?
Because it is easy to get caught up in the movement of the crowd.
It hurts to move the other way.
I bruise like a peach.
I will just need to accept the pain… and the black and blue.
Here I come reality…with patience and a detailed, determined, and passionate focus.
“Do not let my fickle flesh go to waste
As it keeps my heart and soul in its place.
And I will love with urgency
But not with haste.”

About Kevin Carlstead

I graduated as a hospitality and psychology student at University of Denver. I spent most of my teenage and young adult years in the hospitality industry. I am still searching for what industry suits my personality and talents so that I can feel more meaning throughout my days. My current career pursuit has me enrolled in a graduate program to become a licensed Marriage and Family Therapist. I was born and raised in San Diego, CA. I love music with something to it. I love life with something to it. I have made it one of my purposes in this life to integrate both of these things that I love. This blog and my own songwriting has given me the platforms to do that very thing. Thank you for reading.
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