Illusion

I do not get to choose my thoughts.

I do not get to choose my emotions.

I do not get to choose how my body works.

I do not get to choose how my body feels.

I do not get to choose how others respond.

I do not get to choose the flow of nature.

I may not get to choose these facts. They lay before me as a part of my constantly changing experience. But, I do get to choose how I respond to them. That is the genuine power I hold in my life.

I am unable to change the past; I cannot know the future; and, no one has the ability to be perfectly positive…or perfectly negative. I live in an out of control, imperfect, and unknown world. A place where, if I stay close to the present moment without trying to grip any fact, I have thousands of true and potent options to choose from.

And, I would like to choose to connect.

To nurture.

To care.

To love.

To throw away my logo…my brand…

Be vulnerable. Humble.

Really get to know you…me…this world.

Connection. Imperfection. Attainable Direction.

About Kevin Carlstead

I graduated as a hospitality and psychology student at University of Denver. I spent most of my teenage and young adult years in the hospitality industry. I am still searching for what industry suits my personality and talents so that I can feel more meaning throughout my days. My current career pursuit has me enrolled in a graduate program to become a licensed Marriage and Family Therapist. I was born and raised in San Diego, CA. I love music with something to it. I love life with something to it. I have made it one of my purposes in this life to integrate both of these things that I love. This blog and my own songwriting has given me the platforms to do that very thing. Thank you for reading.
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1 Response to Illusion

  1. I am in reality with you brother. Better here than spinning in stories of others’ creation. At least I can hold on to the power that I do have and since it is only effective on reality, I have a chance for creating some good too. Cheers. Thanks for taking the time to write and the knowledge that we are not alone. Since we can only have a true connection if it is direct and not mediated by some ideology…it is great to know there are others who put people first. Thank you.

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