Point of No Return = when the moment and my actions move into history and there is no way to go back…where I realize that I’d like to be more conscious next time…where I am reminded that “next time” is completely unknown…where I realize that I can either walk towards the next moment authentically or craft a response ahead of time…where I realize that no matter which one I choose, there will be nothing perfect about it and both will be awkward…where I realize that walking in authentically and vulnerably is putting trust in who I am…and walking in with a mismatched, crafted speech is giving up on who I am…
…giving up on how I respond to new moments…giving up on everything I have become today…giving up on everything I have come to understand to this point…giving up on the multi-perspective, ever-changing context of the present.
The more time I spend outside of myself crafting a perfect response, the more time I spend on the “idea” of me (as an object) instead of spending time inside of myself growing my authentic knowledge, skills, and self-trust.
So, I’d like to face this next moment with no prior warning. I’d like to walk in with my wholehearted attention. I’d like to move to the point of no return knowing that I am being vulnerable and empathetic in order to connect with myself, others, and the world.