Things like self-doubt, anxiety, depression, and self-loathing are very stimulating. Every piece of me can easily become absorbed and caught in rabbit holes of negative narratives, anticipatory dramas, chasing perfection and control, and frustrated bullying inside my own mind.

When absorbed…I cannot see the me that is hiding underneath…scared, empty, hesitating, and alone. I am somewhere down there…not completely shielded…wanting to connect.

When absorbed…I cannot see you. I can see your crafted image maybe…but, not the fact that you have burning desires, captivating longings, and humble imperfections…I look right past your humanness…and your need for me to see you, hear you, and ask about you.

About Kevin Carlstead

I graduated as a hospitality and psychology student at University of Denver. I spent most of my teenage and young adult years in the hospitality industry. I am still searching for what industry suits my personality and talents so that I can feel more meaning throughout my days. My current career pursuit has me enrolled in a graduate program to become a licensed Marriage and Family Therapist. I was born and raised in San Diego, CA. I love music with something to it. I love life with something to it. I have made it one of my purposes in this life to integrate both of these things that I love. This blog and my own songwriting has given me the platforms to do that very thing. Thank you for reading.
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