Things like self-doubt, anxiety, depression, and self-loathing are very stimulating. Every piece of me can easily become absorbed and caught in rabbit holes of negative narratives, anticipatory dramas, chasing perfection and control, and frustrated bullying inside my own mind.
When absorbed…I cannot see the me that is hiding underneath…scared, empty, hesitating, and alone. I am somewhere down there…not completely shielded…wanting to connect.
When absorbed…I cannot see you. I can see your crafted image maybe…but, not the fact that you have burning desires, captivating longings, and humble imperfections…I look right past your humanness…and your need for me to see you, hear you, and ask about you.