The Journey

Every moment…I have a choice to make. How do I respond…how do I reply to the things outside of my control?

And…no matter how I answer…the things outside of my control are going to play out as they will anyway. I’m going to get sick; I’m going to be embarrassed; I’m going to feel pain; I’m going to have unwanted thoughts and memories; and I’m not going to be perfect.

So, I can respond with negativity (chasing past insecurities, future doubts, or present frustrations).

Or, I can decide to make eye contact with the task at hand…the pace of reality. I can take this opportunity to be alive, attentive, and kind.

What do I prefer? Stressed or calm? Because life will forge its path through either response.

This journey from perfection and control may never be complete.

I truly just want to steadily grow…taking small steps towards embracing more vulnerability, warmth, and presence.

I have found out how meaningful it is when I try to connect with myself, you, and the world. I had been locked in my own and systemically created cage for much too long.

About Kevin Carlstead

I graduated as a hospitality and psychology student at University of Denver. I spent most of my teenage and young adult years in the hospitality industry. I am still searching for what industry suits my personality and talents so that I can feel more meaning throughout my days. My current career pursuit has me enrolled in a graduate program to become a licensed Marriage and Family Therapist. I was born and raised in San Diego, CA. I love music with something to it. I love life with something to it. I have made it one of my purposes in this life to integrate both of these things that I love. This blog and my own songwriting has given me the platforms to do that very thing. Thank you for reading.
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2 Responses to The Journey

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  2. Eugenie Carlstead says:

    Thank you Kevin. I too, have felt the comfort and isolation of the cage and it takes courage and vulnerability to find a home directly in the world. I have also tried solving everything at once approach which is not great. I too, have chosen to settle in and trust life and myself and realise that it is a life long dance that we can actually enjoy and find meaning and growth. It really is a choice of living in the world. Thank you Kevin for your taking time to explore these significant themes in our life so courageously.

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