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Illusion
I live in an out of control, imperfect, and unknown world. A place where, if I stay close to the present moment without trying to grip any fact, I have thousands of true and potent options to choose from. Continue reading
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Hi. I’m Dying to Connect :)
But, at the end of the day, it is as simple as…we are not objects…we cannot control what is constantly in motion. We can only move along with it. We can only dance with it. Continue reading
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Acceptance
Holding on disrupts the constant. Letting go defines the moment. Continue reading
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Response Struggle
We respond to our fear of failure and vulnerability, our fear of death, our fear of emptiness with ideas of IMAGE and POWER and ENTERTAIN AWAY FROM THE FACTS OF LIFE. There are other ways to respond to this scary adventure here on earth. Breathe and read what I have learned here in this blog post. Continue reading
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Daughter: New Demo
FIRST HALF OF SONG – I first started writing these lyrics when I realized how imaginative and controlling I became with my jealousy towards my ex-girlfriend’s flirtatious ways. After writing the first few lines and going to bed, I had a … Continue reading
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Tagged Carlstead, cliff of pain, daughter, demo, distractions, Kevin, kid cudi, life, Love, relationships, suicide, truth
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My Upcoming EP
My 1st EP “Ground” was about the pursuit of truth Cage Victim Fear Question Muse Who Am I Ground I found that there was nothing but an “image of me” being hesitantly portrayed to the world and my own self. … Continue reading
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Reason
in being innocent we respond to being alive by trying to understand what is true and provide what is needed, and we never manipulate for advantage or control; primarily because we observe that both advantage and control are illusions, and do not exist in the reality of being a mortal human being
-Paul Hatherley
I roll around in circles ’cause I never learned to think.
So, I go to films and packs of friends, which push me into sync
With the world of cool that maps it out (the plan for everyday)
Until I lay in death to rest or earth just falls into decay.
We humans have amazing powers and one of which is reason.
We could satisfy our every need, so we’re aware of seasons.
But, this “task” is way too hard to begin to think it all through.
So instead of curing pain with conscious thought, here’s what we do
We try to cure the void of love with TV for distraction.
We watch our show and look at life if it were set and crafted.
We try our best to copy scripts and follow plans exactly
But, then manipulate the “love” we want while forming all the actors.
Now, life has turned into a “thing” which we know we can’t do
From the fact that life is changing and its telling us to move.
If we think for just one hour with no noise in our room
Not one person, or a phone that would interject through
This waking moment with ourselves, inside our thoughts and our feelings.
Maybe we will see the point I’m making is really for a reason.
Its the truth and our lives are not much happier this way
When we distract and fill our time with all these veggie filled days.
So, as I roll in these circles ’cause I never learned to think
I am learning.
And now I am finding all these little links.
With our reason, I am learning of myself and my dreams.
In every season, I’m learning different ways in which life speaks.
Life is an experience to be loved, lived, and learned
Not an object…to be controlled, crashed, and burned
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Mental Addiction
From grade 8 at 15 years old, peaking sophomore year in high school at 17 years old, and slowly dwindling off and on till freshman year in college, I was a stoner: big hair, half-ass development in anything I tried, … Continue reading
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