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Tag Archives: fear
Warmth
Nurturing = being a backboard for a sweet lay-up Continue reading
Posted in Being Present
Tagged control, empathy, fear, humble, Love, mental health, nurturing, Perfection, present, recovering perfectionist, warm
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A Series of Journeys
Introducing my new series of blog posts that will be posted sequentially each day this coming week. Continue reading
Posted in Being Present
Tagged connection, experience, fear, journey not a destination, Love, mental health, presence, present, recovering perfectionist, vulnerability, warmth
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Let Go To Be Here
Let go of perfection and control Continue reading
Posted in Being Present
Tagged anxiety, control, depression, fear, mental health, Perfection, recovering perfectionist, response, self acceptance, self care, self love, unknown
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Facing It
I just sat there as fear crept in Continue reading
Posted in Being Present
Tagged anxiety, control, depression, fear, mental health, Perfection, recovering perfectionist, self acceptance, self care, self love, unknown
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Within Reach
Veil of black falls instantly Shifting me inside Dark mirror inventions Arming to misguide – Repose to soft Suppose to ache Support the creations Until I shake – Unknown and alive Reap what I sew Opposing the common Recognize a … Continue reading
Posted in Choice-Based Life
Tagged alone, anxiety, emotional health, fear, mental health, perfectionist, present
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Quarantine – Week 2
Forecasting a Snowy Night: I dunno. I was fine. I was playing my guitar and singing. It was like 30 minutes of covers and almost 2 hours of my own stuff. The personal deep dive into my own songs and … Continue reading
Posted in Quarantine
Tagged anxiety, catastrophizing, fear, mental health, panic, patient, present, scared, sleep
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Quarantine – Week 1
Wednesday (25th): Finally! A day off from work and I was able to stick to my quarantine schedule. Work Out √ Meditation √ School Stuff √ Eat & Sleep Well √ Thursday (26th): Work Out √ Meditation √ School Stuff √ … Continue reading
Posted in Quarantine
Tagged adapt, awareness, fear, hope, meditation, mental health, perfectionist, playlist, psychology, purpose, scary, uncertainty
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Animals
I am observing white geese, gray geese, ducks, and crows as they relax with their kin by the shore. The geese are individually cleaning themselves and, as I walk towards them, I seem a bit too close. The white, meaty … Continue reading
Posted in Humans & Society
Tagged american dream, control, fake, fear, human, Image, impulse, Meaning, mental health, nature, pain, reality, suicide
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Response Struggle
We respond to our fear of failure and vulnerability, our fear of death, our fear of emptiness with ideas of IMAGE and POWER and ENTERTAIN AWAY FROM THE FACTS OF LIFE. There are other ways to respond to this scary adventure here on earth. Breathe and read what I have learned here in this blog post. Continue reading
Posted in Control is an Illusion
Tagged alone, anxiety, beauty, black and white, black or white, bob dylan, breathe, change, character, chess, contradicting, contradiction, control, curiosity, curious, death, deny reality, depth, direction, distraction, distractions, education, ego, empty, equitable, facade, fake, fear, fight fire with fire, fragile, freedom, gray, honesty, humble, illusion, innocence, integrity, journey, kevin carlstead, learn, lonely human, Love, lyrics, maggie's farm, manipulate, manipulation, mask, no rewind, noble, open, oppression, pawns, Perfection, plastic, power, present moment, purpose, relax, responsibility, still, struggle, understanding, vulnerability, vulnerable, wasted time, we are small
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American Dream: Control
There is a force field around me There is a grip on my thoughts There’s a chain holding my actions and my self-awareness lost It’s the sheep that keep me quiet The loneliness that keeps me tied Want so bad … Continue reading
Posted in Image
Tagged alone, assumption, assumptions, autobiography of control, black and white, Carlstead, chain, contradicting, experience, fake, fear, feel good, feelings, force field, gray, grip, habit, Image, Kevin, learn, lie, lost, meaningful life, Mental addiction, pain, perspective, pleasure, popular, purpose, Real, reality, reason, self-awarness, society, true, truth, understand, wisdom
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