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At a young age, my dad took me cabin camping in Yosemite. There were a lot of warning signs for bears, including the special “bear out” trash cans. I did not know what this meant, but when we all saw … Continue reading
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“Purpose Determines Outcome”
We drove by a grocery store parking lot. I caught a glimpse of a shopping cart in the middle of one of the spots. My mind immediately went to “let’s pull over and move it out of the way.” Being … Continue reading
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Park City-My Visit Back
Life touches me so deeply and my mind is wired to take it all in, reflect, and learn all there is to learn from it. My mind, in the back of all the stimulation of society, screams for this. … Continue reading
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There is always a transition happening in front of us. Whether it be: Needing to pee, so we stop what we are doing and go to the bathroom A friend’s death, so we stop our routine to mourn in the … Continue reading
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American Dream: Control
There is a force field around me There is a grip on my thoughts There’s a chain holding my actions and my self-awareness lost It’s the sheep that keep me quiet The loneliness that keeps me tied Want so bad … Continue reading
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Daughter: New Demo
FIRST HALF OF SONG – I first started writing these lyrics when I realized how imaginative and controlling I became with my jealousy towards my ex-girlfriend’s flirtatious ways. After writing the first few lines and going to bed, I had a … Continue reading
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Life is about Transitions
Whether it be Moving away from your comfort zone to live completely on your own for the first time A break up or family member passing to feel the loss of someone so important Someone who treats you unfairly to … Continue reading
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Adding the Extra Step
– Allow myself to think how I naturally do in every situation – – Allow myself to feel how I naturally do in every situation – If I lived like this and only this, my actions would end up based on … Continue reading
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in being innocent we respond to being alive by trying to understand what is true and provide what is needed, and we never manipulate for advantage or control; primarily because we observe that both advantage and control are illusions, and do not exist in the reality of being a mortal human being
I roll around in circles ’cause I never learned to think.
So, I go to films and packs of friends, which push me into sync
With the world of cool that maps it out (the plan for everyday)
Until I lay in death to rest or earth just falls into decay.
We humans have amazing powers and one of which is reason.
We could satisfy our every need, so we’re aware of seasons.
But, this “task” is way too hard to begin to think it all through.
So instead of curing pain with conscious thought, here’s what we do
We try to cure the void of love with TV for distraction.
We watch our show and look at life if it were set and crafted.
We try our best to copy scripts and follow plans exactly
But, then manipulate the “love” we want while forming all the actors.
Now, life has turned into a “thing” which we know we can’t do
From the fact that life is changing and its telling us to move.
If we think for just one hour with no noise in our room
Not one person, or a phone that would interject through
This waking moment with ourselves, inside our thoughts and our feelings.
Maybe we will see the point I’m making is really for a reason.
Its the truth and our lives are not much happier this way
When we distract and fill our time with all these veggie filled days.
So, as I roll in these circles ’cause I never learned to think
I am learning.
And now I am finding all these little links.
With our reason, I am learning of myself and my dreams.
In every season, I’m learning different ways in which life speaks.
Life is an experience to be loved, lived, and learned
Not an object…to be controlled, crashed, and burned
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